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Today felt like a day of ‘lasts’ – last day at work, last supper !, last run.

Of course, none of these are really a ‘last’ but for some reason I can’t see past tomorrow for any of these things – because I don’t know how I’m going to feel, I don’t when I’ll do, or enjoy lots of things, for an unknown time. I usually like to plan, I like lists, I like spreadsheets, so the unknown is not really a comfortable feeling for me.

BUT I also feel ‘excited’ ? I know I haven’t even started, and I can’t see the in-between part, but I can visualise the end !! It’s kind of like a really long race or maybe a rep session (rep 1 tomorrow) !! I can imagine how happy I’m going to be when I’m finished. So I’m excited to get the first ‘rep’ over and done with !

LASTS:-

Last day at work : rushing around trying to get everything done, but I also spent all day looking forward to my last supper !

Took some photos of things at work that make me laugh:-

Last supper : during chemo last time my taste buds went AWOL and my mouth was quite sore at times, so I totally went off curry which is my second favourite food 😦 so I wanted to have a big curry with all the bits and pieces. I had a chicken bhuna, rice, naan, chicken pakoras, onion chutney, poppadums plus dips :-)))

Luckily I didn’t go off my first favourite food 🙂 (cheesecake obviously !).

Last run : I fully intended to have a nice easy 6 mile run (well…I stuck to the 6 miles – ish), I enjoyed pushing my pace a little bit and it felt great, so that must be good for the happy hormones / endorphins ? :-