run bike swim beat cancer

I can’t lie – I was disappointed.

I did my first triathlon for ages, I’d built myself up, I really, honestly thought I had a chance of getting on the podium. I thought I’d done some decent training – I knew I wasn’t quite as fast as before, but I’d convinced myself that, even though it was the Scottish Championship, it was possible

……..I was 5th in my age category. 5th. My complimentary tuna roll was soaked from my tears :-(((

I actually was disappointed, but I had a good talk to myself on the way back in the car. My head was being sensible and giving me all the positives but my poor wee heart (and pride) was hurting. I was well and truly knocked off the little podium I’d made for myself.

However, I did really enjoy it 🙂 🙂 I felt good in the swim, even though it was chaos. I did not swim straight !! and I didn’t really kick my legs much at all, I felt quite comfortable – I remembered to try and swim with some sort of technique rather than just flailing around !! I didn’t get over taken on the bike !!! apart from by the flying guys from the heat behind – haha – they flew past, sounding like jet aeroplane’s ! and I overtook some people !! that is unheard of, for me 🙂 I ran strong – felt good – not particularly fast, but not too slow, and again overtook a few people. So I finished feeling really confident. AND that is what my head kept (keeps) telling me to remember !!

So…no medal, but I did get a nice new T-shirt lol

And actually, I looked back on previous times for the same distance and the same course. Last year at Monikie I was 1 hour 23 minutes, today I was 1 hour 22 minutes !! different course. The same course at Lochore in 2021, I was a 41 mins 34 for the bike – today, I was 41 mins 38, my run in 2021 was 22 mins 56, today I was 23 mins 30, and my swim today was 14 mins 30, in 2021 it was 13 mins 50. So…really…its ok !! I went well. And my head is saying – performance was good, position not what I’d hoped for, but that’s not the controllable !! the performance bit is !! does any of that make any sense ??!!

And I know everyone is going to say really nice things, because everyone is so nice, and so nice to me 🙂 but…….you know….

Anyhooooo…I did manage to chill out in the garden at home in the sun :-))) and looked at photos of my lovely family 😍😘😁

MUGA heart scan tomorrow – aaaarggghhh – so not looking forward to that – fingers crossed for not passing out, blood spurting, repeat scans or any other disasters Then Herceptin and Pertuzumab on Thursday and the Podiatrist on Friday for more toe pain !!! yaaaay