run bike swim beat cancer

You’ve probably guessed that I’ve not blogged for aaaaaages because I’ve been feeling goooooood and I’m busy doing lots of random stuff, including working !! and a 2 week H+S training course which I loved !! :-)). I’ve been doing lots of running, some cycling and some swimming – 8 and a half hours of exercise last week !! and I’ve been really enjoying it and I’m getting faster and I’m feeling fitter……

But………there is always a but……I am now quite worried – I had a MUGA heart scan last week (I almost fainted – but that’s another story !!) and the results are ‘low’ – I’m not exactly sure what that means – so I googled it – and that’s a great idea !!! – everyone consults Dr. Google !!! and now I’m really worried that I’ll be taken off the Herceptin and Pertuzumab. The Herceptin / Pertuzumab can affect your heart. Also, when I had them on Thursday, my heart rate was slower than usual

I’m hoping all this has something to do with me doing lots of exercise and getting fitter – but the worry I have at the back of my head – actually at the front of my head (that’s not a saying is it ??!) is that maybe I’m doing too much and adding to the stress on my heart – or maybe me and Dr. Google should stop going to worst case scenario – and maybe I should ask someone who actually knows what they are talking about !!! Well – it didn’t stop me for going out for and 8 mile run this morning, but I am genuinely worried – I really want to stay on the Herceptin, because I understand that it’s the drug that helps keep the cancer away. However, instead of worrying I’m going to be proactive and see if I can speak to my consultant tomorrow.

Last week on the whole was actually very stressful – I also had an ultrasound – which I really was worried about – I’d been having pains in both my armpits that reminded me of the pain I had when I found the lump in my armpit the first time round. I had kind of buried my head in the sand about it while I was waiting to get my ultrasound appointment and had avoided thinking about the possible outcome of the ultrasound – right up until I was walking along the corridor to my appointment !! worry, worry – so the left hand side was scanned first – I was most worried about it because all my lymph nodes are still in there. The radiographer took ages and of course you lie there thinking oh my god what is she finding, so I asked !! and she said it was fine – huraaay !! then she looked at the other side – she found a lymph node !!! what !! I though they had all been removed – worry, worry – but it was OK huraaaay, then she found what she thought was scar tissue but wanted a 2nd opinion, worry, worry – so someone else came in to look at it – she was happy that it was scar tissue aswell, but wanted to get another opinion !!!! worry, worry, worry – but opinion number 3 was that it is definitely scar tissue and is fine !! huraaaay – I think – f’sake ! So the ultrasound was clear :-)) eventually !

The MUGA scan fainting thing was a flippin nightmare – this has happened before for this scan and I felt sorry for the guy who was trying to put the cannula in – my veins did not want to be cannulated and I bled alot :-// We got there eventually but obviously the result was not great

However, its not all doom and gloom, I am feeling really well and on a positive note, my hair has started to grow back :-)) mostly on my chin hahaha !! I do have fuzzy hair on my head too, which is quite nice 🙂 My appetite is still great (we had a lovely meal out for Angus’s birthday), on and off issues with my stomach, but nothing terrible, I’ve got lots of energy, not feeling tired, and (apart from trying to cope with missing Rory) I’m generally feeling very cheery 🙂 🙂 🙂